Laura is a weekly Another71 Facebook blogger as she documents her journey through the CPA Exam.
Really, BEC? Really!?!?!
So for the past week Ive been struggling with a game plan to take on BEC again. I enjoyed my weekend off and my studying has taken on a slow start again.
Ive decided to not actually set the date for my exam and just see how I do studying and really nail down each section as if Ive never seen it before.
Once I feel like Im in a good place I will schedule the exam. Im not studying this exam like I only needed a few more points. Im going to study for this exam like Ive never seen this material before!
This time around Im trying to make this into something exciting; something I really enjoy doing. HA! Enjoy studying, thats a foreign concept, and Im not likely going to fool myself but its worth a shot. This is the last time I can really focus on this exam before busy season picks up for me.
Im going back to reviewing the lectures, working MCQs, and I WILL write everything down. I think the area that needs the biggest improvement for me is writing notes and recognizing why an answer is incorrect. I seem to rush myself through the studying just so I can get it finished by the test date.
I think I rely on memorizing things but not understanding what I am memorizing. Memorization for the sake of memorization isnt helping me comprehend.
I know I have a lot of support on the forums, and its amazing! I had a whole thread dedicated to me at one point. I dont know what I did to deserve that support, but thank you. It means more to me than anything right now.
My son asked me the day I got my score, Hey mom did you pass? and I had to say, No. I failed again. His reaction was oh. I felt horrible! Initially it was the thought that I had let him down again, but ultimately I think the worse part of it was I couldnt even look at him when I said it.
I couldnt look my 13-year-old son in the eye and say that I had failed!!! I felt like such a coward!! I owe it to him to pass; I owe it to my husband to pass; and most of all I owe it to myself to pass.
I am so happy for those of you that passed a section this time or even finished this journey. I was hoping and praying that I would be a CPA in 2011. Well, here is my New Years resolution .I WILL BE A CPA IN 2012!!!!!
Laura, you are setting a great example for your son. He is seeing that his mother is a fighter. There were times when I wanted to cry and throw in the towel, but I tried not to let my sons see it (even though they probably learned a new vocabulary of naughty words). Our generation gets chastised for raising our kids with the "everyone-is-a-winner" attitude. You and I both know it takes a lot of work and a positive attitude. Your son will see this through you. It really broke my heart to hear you didn't pass. I'm still pulling for you!
Thanks Allyson! I want this behind me and for me to move forward! I can't wait to tell my family that I'm done...I likely won't stop crying for a week or more just from being so glad it's over!
There are alot of great points in this blog. I am trying to do the same: studying like I haven't see it before, and really try to listen better on the lectures. You didn't let your son down at all, I think it is wonderful that he realizes how important this is to you, he is demonstrating to you that it is important to him to let you know he is behind you. How great is that? Sooooo sweet! CPA in 2012!!! Book it Dano!!